I love him so much it hurts
It was all my fault.
Honestly. This time I have fucked up worse than I ever thought I could. I have ruined everything and hurt the one person I never ever wanted to hurt.
I want to punish myself I am so insanely angry, but it won’t help anything or fix anything or do any good.
So instead I am left in a sea of misery and uncertainty. Just floating in an ocean of tears.
I would give anything to change it but I can’t. And no matter what happens next. My love will never stop, and the pain will forever be present.
This is it - the one chance I had at the true life I wanted. And I ruined it all.
Blind date with a book
Being a geek…